Sea of Joy

My lord, my dearest, living always in my heart

I’m in the sea of joy being in your eternal presence

Thinking of you, telling and writing about you,

My lord, that’s the only meaningful deed of my human birth

It’s the precious treasure you gave me

My lord, please listen to my humble prayer that

Bless all who hear and read the words I render about you

Please fill them with the sweetest nectar of devotion

May all enjoy the sea of joy that enjoy in your presence 😊

Sharing with you beautiful scenes from my favourite Telgu movie, Annamayya. See the Bhagavan’s immense love towards the devotee. It’s a real story happened many years back:

Om namo narayanaya 🙏😊

Om namah shivaya 🙏😊

Let Not The Fear of Nakedness Limit You :-)

I love traveling solo and enjoy things in my own way, sometimes in silence while sometimes joining a group which welcomes me. In my journeys, I met lots of beautiful people and learnt many things. Traveling solo made me more open, fearless up to an extend to raise the voice whenever needed, use the brain and heart equally and so on.

When I describe my solo travel experiences, few of the people among friends, family and also strangers whom I met during the travel try their ways to convince me to believe I am a woman and I have to care a lot while traveling alone. I accept the care behind their voice while I respectfully smile off the fear and limitation they are trying to inflict on me.

When hearing about staying in a hotel alone, even my own sister and best friend used to tell me to check cameras in the room. I really haven’t found any cameras in the rooms I stayed yet and I don’t believe if someone have to put a hidden camera, most of them have the intelligence to hide it well away from my eyes 😉 When I think of hidden camera which tries to catch my nudity, I laugh. What is really in my nakedness? Do I have any extra organs than that of the mother, sister, daughter, or the wife of the one who put the camera to catch my nudity? Are my organs made of anything special other than flesh, fat, and blood? 🙂 Do the person who enjoys the nakedness of other women feel the same pleasure on seeing the nakedness of his own mother, sister or daughter; do it arouse his genitals?

Sorry, I can’t fear hidden cameras and keep myself shut inside my home? I don’t fear my nakedness. This doesn’t mean I cover my body with less clothes and expose my skin to public nor I cover myself fully in clothes with only eyes exposed. I wear what is comfortable for me according to the climate of the place I am in and I also take care to dress up according to the place and people there.

I would like to say do not fear your nakedness. Do not limit yourself fearing the exposure of your nakedness through hidden cameras. All of our organs are made of same flesh, fat, and blood. Size and color of our organs differ, but composition is same only. The more we fear our nakedness, the more fear we create among our children, our friends, our sisters and we limit them. Dear brothers, uncles, male friends, you too please listen. Do not create fear of exposure of nakedness among your children, spouse, sisters, and friends. ACCEPT NAKEDNESS. Nakedness has divineness, it has purity, it has power. Digambaras of Jainism, Akhoris of Shaivism, Naga sanyasis are the best examples. Realise the truth and be free. Be strong and use common sense in daily life. When you see someone being blackmailed in the name of nudity, stand with them and give them courage to take the help of law. BE STRONG IN YOUR OWN SKIN. YOU WON’T LOSS ANYTHING THROUGH YOUR NAKEDNESS UNLESS YOU YOURSELF BELIEVE SO.

Naree Sthanabhara Nabheedesam
Drushtvaa Maaga Mohaavesam
Ethan Mamsavasaadi Vikaram
Manasi Vichinthaya Vaaram Vaaram

-Bhajagovindam (Sankaracharya)

On seeing bigger weighty breasts and navel of women, do not fall into lusty delusion. They are just flesh, fat, etc. Think this again and again.

Note: This is for women too who gets unnecessarily and abnormally infatuated on seeing nudity of men and other women.

Eternal glowing light of Self 😊

When I contemplated upon my touch of death experience yesterday, it revealed to me the power of eternal glowing light of self. During the moment between unconsciousness and consciousness, I saw darkness even while my eyes closed. I also had seen some light in between. That too while eyes closed. It is through the light of self I saw the darkness and also the light, though both can’t stay together. Light can’t stand in front of darkness nor darkness in front of light, but the light of self/soul can illumine even darkness which no other light can. Even when the mind and body suffered for almost an hour, the self remained unaffected and stayed in background witnessing those events. Feels thankful to the accupuncture therapist now to give me a chance to experience this which I wouldn’t have experienced otherwise 😊

Touch of Death 😊

Had a not so beautiful near death experience through vasovagal syncope while getting accupuncture treatment. Got pricked at a vital point in neck and I blacked out. I experienced darkness in eyes, ears blocked, and I started fainting. Next thing I remember I am in bed, can hear some voices, but words were not clearly aubible. Something in me saying I am not in sleep, I am not dreaming. I could sense my body is trying to come up, but some hands are pulling me down and I heard like please lie down, don’t come up. At that time, I started gaining consciousness. Senior physiotherapist ma’m is calling my name asking me where am I. I am trying to tell I am in hospital, but my tongue isn’t moving, voice not coming out. Somehow I said clinic. I had difficulty catching breathe and I felt to breathe deeply and focus into the heart. I tried to calm myself down through breathe and I could open eyes. I tried to say water, but tongue wasn’t moving. Physiotherapist asked me do I need water. I said aah. I tried to come up, but I couldn’t keep head straight and she said me to lie down and not to get up. She gave me water, but I had difficulty swallowing it. She put a heatpad under my neck and asked me can she give me a toffee. I said Aah. She put a toffee on one side of my mouth and told me to be careful not to swallow. Luckily, the toffee was sticky and it stuck on my upper palate. I touched it with tongue and little by little, within few minutes, my tongue got some strength and I asked water. She gave me water to drink. I told her I am having difficulty to breathe. She folded my legs up and I could do deep breathing. I then told her I want to sit. She tried to lift me up to sitting position and I started falling back. She told me to lie down for some more time. After some time, she told me she is taking me to doctor. Can she put me in wheelchair. I said no, I will try to walk. She lift me up and I slowly came to sitting position. I could sit without falling and with her help, I stood up. She hold my hand and we walked few rooms away to my neurologist’s room. Doctor greeted me with a smile and I smiled back. He checked me up and took BP. It was low. He asked me, am I alright and I said I am fine, but having weakness and little difficulty with tongue to talk. He told me to put my tongue out and say Aah. I was able to do so. He said it will be ok soon, dnt worry. He told me not to worry, take rest. They put me on observation for some time and I called my father to take me home. Father came after some time and I reached home. Someone from clinic called father at night asking how is my condition and he said I am okay. They said to call if anything needed. Except some pain in hand and tiredness, I was absolutely fine, talked with my friend and I slept. Today morning, I talked with my Tai chi master to confirm my doubt regarding pricking at the vital point as I learnt some vital points on neck in self defence. He confirmed my doubt saying I am lucky to recover soon. Sometimes, in rare cases, during accupuncture, accidents happen and patient may get paralysis or die. Luckily, I recovered. My presence of mind to breathe deeply due to lord’s grace to calm the body and timely support of physiotherapists, hospital staffs and doctor there helped me to recover soon. I am still having some tiredness in body. Other than that, I am absolutely fine. It was the first touch of near death experience. Hoping for a nice death next time 😊😁

Krishna and Tulsi

On seeing sadness on Tulsi’s face,

Krishna asked, “My dearest, what happened?”

She looked at the face of her beloved,

Bowed her leafy head to his blue foot

“You know everything my lord,” said her

“Yes dear, I know and I want you to know that,

You don’t have to worry thinking about your purity

When a fishbone fell accidentally on you

Which is from a flying crow’s beak”

“But lord, it is a dead body” said sad Tulsi

“So, what my dear? Do you think it make you impure?”

“No, no my dear, your heart is always filled with me

You always think of me and recite my names

Don’t you know I am present in everything

It’s in wordly life, some things are categorised as pure and some as impure

But in both, I am present

In living and non-living, I am present

In dynamic and stationary, I am present

Nothing can make you impure other than your thoughts

Mind is illusion my dear, be wise

Do not get caught of strings of useless thoughts

You are not just a plant, you are me, myself

Me, your lord is above the norms of purity and impurity

I am the soul in all living beings and matter in the non living

Nothing can touch me, my dear

Being me, mine, my dearest, stop worrying”

Saying this, Krishna hugged the Tulsi plant

She is filled with limitless bliss in divine hug

Remember and Experience Just Now 😊

Before the idols of deity, we bow

Before the photos of deity, we bow

Before the elders, we bow

On hearing songs of almighty, we feel devotion

On hearing stories of almighty, we feel delighted

On hearing miracles of almighty, we experience goosebumps

My dear, do remember the one who feel so is us

My dear, do remember the one who experience that, it is us

My dear, the one inside our hearts and what we sense outside is the same

Appearance and sensations will be different, but deep inside, it’s that only

What we sense outside acts as a catalyst if we accept this truth

What all we sense outside which gives us peace and joy is that only

Try and experience yourself and be filled with limitless bliss

Experience it now, just now, in this very moment my dear

And at this moment, there is no you reading, there is no me written this, there is, there is, there is……..😊